Benwahwah wrote:
In a strange way I am pleased for him. He has had a brain tumour for the last 12 years, and his biggest fear was that he would become incapacitated and end up in some kind of care. .
I felt like a POS feeling this way too, I watched them try all sorts of bullshit on my mum, watched her suffer while the motherfuckers assured me that she wasnt in any pain (bullshit I know my mum) and then when they said its time to say goodbye I felt kind of relieved.
We had people in the ICU on the ground crying and whaling while I leaned down and whispered into her ear
"Its okay mum, you put up a fight, its okay to let go now, Ill be okay alone with the kids, ill manage no problem, ill be with you before you know it I promise" I said that while people were literally on the ground crying, fighting with the ICU nurses and doctors demanding they "DO SOMETHING!" . When the fat lady sings your time is up, we all pass over to the great sleep no point whining about it. In saying that I did lay in bed with the blinds drawn and cried like a little bitch for 3 days..
Ill never know if me saying that broke her heart cause she's gone but she made it clear that she didnt want to be kept on life support or the mechanical breathing machine she was on for 3 days.
Guess it doesnt matter eh Benny boy? life goes on.. just not for my mum or your dad. Maybe theyre in the afterlife together reading our post history.... HOLY FUCKING FUCK!
RIP to the dead.